So this week I have exams and, well, I call them exams when in reality they’re just time fillers for our exam hall- they aren’t the most relevant of things. Anyways, plenty of my friends go into each exam with genuine horror painted across their features and either finish with their wrinkles smooth
Or they just look confused.
And the thing is, I know what it is to stress. Trust me, I do. Not getting into it but by God do I get it,
But the thing is worry doesn’t change a situation.
Thinking ‘what if’ doesn’t effect reality.
Losing sleep about being tired isn’t refreshing
Biting your nails about breaking a habit is hardly effective
And stressing about stressing is like slapping yourself in the face and being surprised by the sting.
but I stress about everything. About what I’ve said, about how it came out, about what he or she is thinking of me about how my lesson will go, about how my hair looks from the back, about whether my struggling friend will be ok, about whether my family will, every phone call I get I’m expecting bad news and
Dear lord, it’s exhausting.
I overthink about overthinking and
It’s just draining.
I’m trying to train myself by the mantra ‘que sera sera’ which is French for ‘what will be, will be. If someone’s formed their opinion and it’s negative then they’re not worth my time changing it. Once somethings left my mouth or I’ve sent the text, the fact is it’s done and stressing about it won’t change that.
Self care isn’t all glamorous, baths and face masks and candles.
It can be letting yourself get so worked up your just need a hug
But you gotta remember
These thoughts? The ones that stop you from sleeping? They’re just thoughts.
Thoughts in no way reflect reality.
Please don’t forget that
Love, Hea xxx